Tomorrow, for Ev

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"Therefore, since we are surrounded with such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us."  -Hebrews 12:1
For several months I've been training for this day--tomorrow.
Tomorrow I will lace up my sneakers, and I will set off, praying for strength and swiftness of feet. 
This isn't just another race. We are running for Ev.
Ev's race is over. He ran swift, and he ran well. To us, his friends and family, the race came to an end all too soon. We were left with an emptiness. We miss his presences, we miss the joy and laughter he brought to our lives. There isn't a day that goes by without us thinking about him, and wishing that circumstances would be different, that he would still be with us in person, not just in memories. He got the better end of the deal, certainly. He is well and whole, and because of that, we are thankful. But that doesn't dull the pain. 
Each day of training brought with it emotion. 
Some runs brought tears, others laughter. And I am learning that there is healing  in both--to allow yourself to cry when you feel like crying and to laugh when you feel like laughing.
Ev's life was full and beautiful. At twenty-one years of age, he experienced more life than what some people, who pass on of old age, find in their entire being. 
His legacy is strong in my memory, and tomorrow I want to seize the race, just as he seized this life--with passion and vigor. Enjoying it. Loving it. Embracing the moment.
Tomorrow as I run, he will be forefront in my mind. As will his family and friends, those of us left behind, rejoicing for his gain, and aching for his presence. If you would, join me in prayer--pray for strength and endurance for our team, that we could run well the race marked out for us. But even more than that, pray for Ev's family and friends, those of us longing for heaven. Those of us desiring, more than anything, that, like Ev, we would live this life fully, loving others, and serving God with all our might. His life and legacy pushes us all to be more, to walk in our calling.
Ev, I will be crossing the finish line tomorrow, ending the relay for our team. We are running for you, and each day we are closer to the day when we can join you. We will see you again... but not yet ... not yet. 
Yes, to some this is just another race, but to me it is so much more.


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